“Difficult to see. Always in motion the future” – Yoda

Yoda’s words really ring true for me, especially on international Star Wars Day.

Wow, it’s been quite some time since I had time to sit down and write here, over a year actually which is crazy. It really doesn’t seem like its been that long, but with how whirlwind my life has become it makes perfect sense.

I guess I should begin with explaining what’s happened while I’ve been M.I.A. So much has changed in my life. After much hard work and some luck I am now completing my first year as student in web design. I can now proudly say that I am officially a college student which in my family is a rare feat.

While it’s been a hard year, I had some success and some failure. For example in my first semester I made it onto the Dean’s Honour roll (which was one of the proudest moments of my educational experience), this second semester was much more difficult than I had planned and while I likely won’t make the honour roll this term, I still managed to kick some ass and show that I can succeed even when overcome by work and stress. I’ve learned so much this past year, and not only about how to build a high quality website but about myself as a person and what my strengths & limitations are as a student are.

The other big news in my life, which is one of the biggest moments I’ve ever experienced is that I proposed to my longterm sweetheart Jodi back in January during our trip to Iceland. It was a magical moment in the fog of the Blue Lagoon hot springs that ended up being more perfect than I ever could have planned. Haha I was such a nervous wreck for months before I asked her and to have it all come together as perfectly as it did was something I’ll never forget. The staff was amazing and helped me in every way they could in making the moment a surprise and I couldn’t be more grateful.

So while I’ve been away for some time and I’m sure not many people still follow or read this, I hope those of you who do understand that sometimes life gets in the way and that finding time for writing isn’t as easy as it may seem. The work involved in ensuring a successful school experience has eaten up pretty much any free time I have had for the past 12 months. That being said, Now that I am done for the summer and am currently on the look out for a summer job. There will be a more active presence on here and possibly some changes (Considering upgrading so I can personalize the site and utilize those web design skills) so feel free to follow me along as I re-integrate myself into the wordpress community.

May the 4th be with you,

Mike

When I grow up………

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I’ve spent a good part of my life confused about who I am, who I want to be and what my contribution to the world will be? Since I was a teen I’ve been struggling with the eternal question “who do I want to be when I grow up?”. Well I’m grown up now and I’m still asking myself that same question, struggling with the same feelings and doubts about myself.

Having spent the past 2 years preparing for College so I can establish myself in a career of my choosing, finally taking my first steps towards an answer to that question. Going back and finishing off what I didn’t complete in high school was an extremely positive and uplifting experience for me. More so than I could have imagined. Though I find myself doubting the choices I made again.

I know my decisions over the past few years have been the right ones, and that I’ve made significant progress forward in my life. But I can’t help but feel like I’m still no more closer to answering that question. I’m beginning to wonder if there even is an answer. Does anyone really know who they were meant to become? I don’t know, maybe my doubts come from my risk averse personality and no matter how far I succeed I’ll doubt myself.

All I know is that I’m not happy with who I am right now. I’ve accomplished so little while I see others my age who have accomplished so much. It’s disheartening. I keep telling myself I’m destined to have more impact on the world than just taking up space. I just wish I could figure out what it was.

Upcoming changes :p

So I’ve been kind of going through a writers block of sorts. Been struggling to keep up with my blogging and I’m sure it’s been noticeable. I guess it’s been too much Xbox and Reddit, not enough writing/drawing time. Lol I’m a cause of my own struggles.

I’ve been tinkering around with some ideas about how I want to proceed with my blogging. Starting next week, I’ll be sharing and implementing some of theses ideas on here. I’m considering ending my weekly blogging challenge, though I’m more leaning to changing it from Wednesdays to Mondays.
So I hope you readers who still follow me can forgive me for the lameness of my writing as of recent. But in the coming weeks I’m hoping to laugh, learn and grow as a writer. Thanks for your patience and hope you enjoy the changes.

Mike

A minuscule spec on a fraction of a pale blue dot.

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Once we overcome our fear of being tiny, we find ourselves on the threshold of a vast and awesome Universe that utterly dwarfs — in time, in space, and in potential — the tidy anthropocentric proscenium of our ancestors. ~ Carl Sagan

This weekend was the Perseid Meteor shower. Being a city slicker I normally don’t get the opportunity to enjoy the amazing light shows they put on. I was lucky enough to catch the beginning of this amazing celestial event, as I was out at my mothers in the country for our annual summer family BBQ. We were fortunate enough to have a clear skies, so I was able to fully enjoy what turned out to be a beautiful light show.

It’s events like the meteor shower, which leave me feeling incredibly small in comparison to the rest of universe. No matter what challenges I face in life, or how big my insecurities feel, its an awfully humbling feeling to realize just how small and unimportant they are in the general scheme of things. Yet in spite of being faced with such a humbling experience, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed by the enormity of the problems I face in my life. I have some big decisions to make regarding my future, many of which scare me.

We all can’t help but view ourselves as the center of our own universe. Not because we are inherently a selfish species, but more so because our understanding of the world around us is shaped by our own individual experiences. Every so often we are presented with a situation, problem or moment in life where we are faced with the truth, that despite how important our world seems, we are nothing more than a tiny spec, on a fraction of a dot in the ever expanding universe.

In my everyday life I feel tiny in comparison to the problems I’m facing and that’s what scares me. Yet I know that it only scares me because of the unknown factors that can turn my world upside down. I wonder if its this fear that has prevented me from actually being able to make a solid decision regarding my future and who I wanna be. I also wonder if that’s part of the reason why I’m struggling so much to define where I fit in.

All I know is that even though my problems in life are insignificant in comparison to the universe as a whole, they aren’t insignificant to the world that is my existence. And while my time on this pale blue dot we inhabit is limited, if I wish to achieve my maximum potential, that I must face each problem head on no matter how enormous they may seem.

(NOTE: The image above is the “Pale Blue Dot” photograph of the Earth taken by the Voyager 1 spacecraft on July 6, 1990. The Earth is the relatively bright speck of light about halfway across the uppermost sunbeam. Image is owned by NASA and was found on the wikipedia article for the image)

Weekly blogging challenge # 2 – Electric Boogaloo.

It’s Wednesday so that means its time for my next blogging challenge. I missed my usual Monday post this week because I was cramming for an exam (I kicked ass Wooo).

This weeks post is inspired by the “Picture Me 8 day challenge” I found on tumblr (link included below). Now with my photo challenge I’m going to spread it apart over a few weeks as I want to include various different writing/photo challenges every Wednesday. In today’s post I’m doing a twist on challenge #1. Instead of 1 pic and 5 facts about myself. I’m going to share 5 photos of myself over the years and a brief explanation of the photo and why I picked it.

Photo#1: I most definitely was a kid of the 80’s

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This photo was taken when I was around 20-21 years of age in my first apartment. I don’t recall where I got the wig or why but being a the huge dork I often would bust it out with friends while headbanging to heavy music. I picked this photo because it truly shows just how ridiculous I can get. *(Note the obligatory half naked girly poster every guys first apartment has to have)*

Photo#2: Call me Rubber Face.

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Haha this photo was taken a few years ago. I think 2010. But it just goes show my penchant of being a huge dork. Most people who know me notice I like to make a ridiculous face. My facebook photos are mainly funny faces. I picked this photo because every time I see it I laugh my ass off. It’s just plain silly.

Photo #3: The epicness that is Grizzly.

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In this photo, you’ll barely see me as my awesomely giant cat Grizzly takes up the majority of the shot. This was taken by my sister in 2007 I believe. I was staying with her after leaving a horrible relationship. At the time my cat Grizzly was quite unhappy due to the move and everything else going on so I picked him up and he crawled onto my shoulders. I picked this photo because it reminds me of how important I am to him. Grizzly has never been very friendly with people and has only recently started truly accepting the girlfriend. But since the beginning we have always been super close. My bond with him is one of the most important relationships I’ve ever had. *(Note Grizzly is 19lbs of fur and muscle and despite the temperament is a very loving pet)

Photo #4: Fiji 2009 Image

This photo was taken in 2009 by my best friend on our trip to Nanuya Island Resort (see link below) in Fiji. . This photo is significant to me because when planning my trip there I came across a photo of this exact tree and made it my wallpaper for all my devices. Mainly because it’s a beautiful shot but also as a way to inspire and encourage me to save up enough money to fulfill my desire to go to Fiji, which I did for my 27th birthday. I marked the accomplishment by getting a photo of myself sitting in that same tree as a reminder that I can accomplish any goal I make for myself.

Photo#5: Take care of your smile.

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This last photo is who I am today. It was taken last year shortly after I went through the first of many dental procedures to repair my smile. Part of the reason why most of the photos I have of myself are me being silly, is because in general I hated to smile for photos. For years I was overly self conscious of my smile due to having bad teeth. I also had a pretty big phobia with the dentist and spent a good chunk of my twenties in severe pain. *(Note No fooling kids, the pain I felt was insanely bad. At times like I was shot in the face. Visit your dentist regularly. Holy Hell). This photo is the first one taken in over a decade where I didn’t hate my smile. Its also a bit ridiculous without having to make a silly face. 😀

So I hope today’s post gives you readers a better insight into the man behind the words. I apologize for missing Monday’s post and won’t miss Fridays. Thanks again for reading folks.

Links:

http://www.nanuyafiji.com/

http://heckyeahtumblrchallenges.tumblr.com/

*(Update this post has been renamed Weekly blogging challenge 08/02/13.)

Weekly blogging challenge #1.

We’ll its Wednesday, which means today’s post is the first one in my weekly blogging challenge. For today’s post I wanted to share a piece of writing I completed for a class project. I know it’s a bit of a cheat using something I wrote already, but I wanted to share it because it’s one of the first pieces I’ve done where I felt like I wrote something worth merit.

The image below is the inspiration for this piece of writing. I’m not sure who the artist is but its one of my favorite pieces of digital art.

Before I share today’s post, I wanted to caption it with a quote that fits the spirit of the essay

Imagination will often carry us to worlds that never were. But without it, we would go nowhere ~ Carl Sagan

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Curiosity and the power of imagination

In this image the artist is showing that curiosity and imagination are what provides us with the ability to understand the world that we live in. Our curiosity is what leads us to discovery, but its our imaginations that allow us to put meaning to experience and understanding to knowledge.

The are two feature characters in this image, a young boy and a cat, both of which are known symbols of curiosity, either through youth or through instinct. The bright and colorful glow of the painting, which is the focus of the boys attention, is representative of how curiosity draws us in. The boy being in the attic, a part of the house that is rarely visited, reinforces his childlike curiosity.

Each of the items the boy is carrying are examples of his imagination at work. A cardboard sword turns into a powerful weapon, a ball of yarn becomes a lifeline back to home and his teddy bear becomes a trusty friend. Though each item alone is powerless, their strength comes from the boys imagination.

The artist has filled the picture with a rich collection of objects that show what curiosity and imagination can bring. These relics symbolize knowledge that has been gained. For example we can see a bust of Homer (Omero) representing philosophy, a globe representing our understanding of the world we live in, and a telescope representing our understanding of the universe beyond. The variety of objects suggests that the rewards of curiosity and imagination are universal to all types of knowledge. In addition, by being in the attic, the artist hints that these objects are rewards gained from previous adventures.

Overall this picture represents life’s great adventure. If you embrace your imagination, and face life with a creative and open mind, the treasures gained through life’s experiences will be rewarding

Thank you for reading today’s post. Always welcome comments, opinions or questions. Next weekly challenge I’m planning to post some new ideas.

Mike

Weekly Wednesday Blogging Challenges.

So I’ve been blogging for just under two months now as well as spending a lot of time reading other people’s blogs, learning how they have built up their readership and created a voice for themselves through their writing. I’ve learned that to be a successful blogger, one must post frequently, push themselves to write about interesting topics/shared mutual interests and above all be true to yourself through your writing.

I’ve always tried in each post to share with readers a bit about who I am, as well as an insight into my experiences as I learn about myself as a writer and as a person. I noticed I’ve begun to get my own group of followers, while its a small group, it is a positive affirmation that I write thoughtful and interesting posts. I wanted to thank each one of you for taking the time to read what I have to say, I’m complimented beyond belief.

Since I started writing I’ve tried to maintain a twice a week posting. (Mon & Fri), but because of the positive reader response, I’m feeling confident enough to start posting more often. So I’ve decided to add a weekly blogging challenge every Wednesday. I’m hoping to use this day as a way to test my writing skills and add a humorous twist to my posts. As well I’m planning on posting a weekly doodle or drawing as I challenge myself to draw more often in preparation for design school. I used to draw daily in the past but over recent years I’ve stopped for stupid reasons that I regret and I really want to get back into that routine. That will come a little later on as I get some drawing practice in. Anyway thanks for reading tonight’s post. Thanks again to all of you and I hope you folks keep on reading.

*(Update the title of this post has been changed to better reflect the goal behind my challenge. 08/02/13